So I am batting 0 for 3 in the main health categories..Exercise, Nutrition and Stress Management.
I am wasting my time and life worrying about things that may or may not happen while at the same time becoming depressed over things I have not done. Especially since I have a six year old daughter who continues to grow up..and I am missing out on things. I haven't had a summer vacation in two years and I am not going to get those years back. I had to cancel our trip to visit friends out east and tour D.C. last year. This year my wife and daughter went to Disney World on a trip without me because of work conflicts. I can't even explain how much it hurt to have my daughter go to Disney World without me. So how do I fix this..
First, I need to try and stop worrying about things.. Much easier said then done. Especially since my mind wakes me up at 2 a.m. or 4 a.m. and won't let me get back to sleep. I can control what I can control and that is it. I also must get proactive. And I have to plan things..if bad things happen they will happen either way. However, I must convince myself I can't waste my life worrying and doing nothing. I took Friday off to be with the family...Thursday night I couldn't sleep at all because I was worried about what would happen at work on Friday. Friday I waited for a telephone call..and tonight I am dreading going in. Thus I am not going to sleep.
Second I need to set some goals and plans. I have two free race entries to use up this year..so I am going to decide which races I want to do and sign up. If I don't race then I have not lost anything..but at least I will have some goals.
Regular exercise should help my stress..and even if it does not at least my body will be healthier. Although I have not been extremely religious my entire life..in fact I have questioned it numerous times in the last few years...I have found that going to mass on a regular basis..even a couple of times a week is soothing. I have also found volunteering to be good for me. So I will look to see what I can do as far as volunteering for more races, at church and my daughters school and sports.
Right now I don't have a passion...Work is not my passion nor is my profession..in fact they are probably what is keeping me from finding my passion. I used to love volleyball..played 4 nights a week..spent weekends at tournaments....however I have not played in about 4 years and have lost touch with all my friends who used to play. Triathlon and biking do nothing for me right now..probably because I don't have a goal to train for or more likely because I do not have friends to train with at this point. I'm so out of shape I am embarrassed to ride with people who have asked me. So I guess I need to find my passion again..if I ever actually had one to begin with.
My nutrition has to change since it is literally killing me. Again, I need to be proactive with this. Pack my lunch..make my breakfast and plan our dinners. I know small changes are the way to go..but I think I have done so much damage that I really need to do something drastic. Thus I am going to try and follow the six week plan in the Eat to Live book by Dr. Fuhrman, It is a plant based nutrition format. I love meat but I can do without it..I have in the past. The problem is giving up dairy... I love cheese.
So in short..the plan.
1. Try not to stress about work and do things outside of work that make me happy - volunteer, church, exercise etc.
2. Exercise (set goals and draft training schedule to stick to)
3. Nutrition (proactive - pack lunches - plan meals in advance)
4. Reconnect with family and friends..make them a priority.
5. Have faith..and enjoy the blessings I do have..like my wife and daughter.
I also need to take advantage of the resources available to me. I belong to a cycling club and tri club and have not had the motivation to attend any of their events this year. I also am active on a facebook page - From Fat To Finish Line that has a lot of wonderful people that are full of good advice and encouragement.
I am also going to keep blogging - it seems like a good outlet for me. I was hesitant about putting this blog online since it is a fairly serious post but maybe it will kick start my new program. I guess this post is more for me than anyone else. I need to change now - I am missing time with my family and friends and have not "lived" for a while. I need to put things back into proper perspective. What is a nice house if you can't enjoy it..and stressing to the point you can't enjoy family and friends? I'm sure a lot of you reading this have gone through similar times in your life and can relate.
Hopefully I will be posting int he near future with some positive stories. Have a great week and I hope everyone is enjoying the start to their summers. Happy Trails!